10 April, 2021

'Childmemory' by Michael Dugan

'David's Willow Tree' by Susan Clark


The following poem, Childmemory, by Michael Dugan is filled with beautiful memories and imagery. Its environmental theme is poignant and powerful. At the time of writing, this poem is not available anywhere else on the web and is almost impossible to find in published books. However, I was able to discover that it was published in Poetry Australia 32: Preface to the Seventies (1970, p. 35), which resulted in an email exchange with Michael Dugan's former colleague. I am sharing the poem in full because it is too wonderful to be forgotten forever. I encourage teachers to use this poem in their classrooms to explore the concepts of past, present and preservation. All credit goes to the brilliant Michael Dugan who composed this work.

Childmemory

Down past Macartney’s farm
beyond a wilderness of waist high thistles,
willow trees caressed the creek.
We would come to the willows
along a secret path of our own making,
to leap into their feathered greenness
and, clutching handfuls of whiplike branches,
would swing, eyes closed, above the stream,
rejoicing in motion,
with the bitter taste of willow leaves in our mouths.
Later we tied a rope to the highest branch,
and riding its arc like a pendulum,
would pause at the point of timelessness; to drop,
breaking the pool’s glass surface
into ever widening sculptured circles.
One summer night I crept silent to the willows
and swung for hours, feeling the cool sweet air on my face,
watching stars reflecting in the pool,
like trolls’ eyes staring from the black water.

Returning fifteen years later,
factories pour waste into the creek,
no one remembers willow trees.


Michael Gray Dugan
 (1947-2006) was an Australian poet, children's writer and editor. Born in the outskirts of MelbourneDugan recalled writing stories and poems as a child of eight or nine. In 1968, he first published 'Crosscurrents' magazine from the Melbourne suburb of Canterbury. He also worked as poetry editor of 'Overland' magazine and served as vice-president of the Victorian Fellowship of Australian Writers. In the 1980s, he was a consultant and an editor for the Australian Institute of Multicultural Affairs. Along with his works in children's literature, Dugan had an extensive background in Australian history. He wrote numerous historical textbooks published by Macmillan Education Australia. There are over 200 book titles in Dugan's nameincluding factual books, fictional stories and poetry anthologiesOther publishers he wrote for include Oxford, JacarandaPenguin, and 
Hodder & Stoughton.

You deserved to be valued...


Recognising your significance...



Sometimes it can be difficult to see any significance in what you do. You work hard, try your best, give it your all. You try to better yourself, learn more, give more. You do it to share your skills, your understandings, your life lessons. Sometimes, however, your reach seems so limited and your efforts worthless. At this point, it becomes harder to see your purpose in this world. I'll always remember a priest who spoke at a Sydney youth festival: "A lot goes into a person." It made me reconsider what my parents wanted for me and some of the conscious choices they made.

Each one of us is unique, the product of a myriad of experiences and teachings and interactions. Each one of us has so much to share, but sometimes the opportunity to do so is lacking. I've worked hard in my life to learn new things, improve my knowledge, be the best teacher I can be. But, I have learnt that I can't please everyone in the way they might want. If they want a 'yes-man', then I'm definitely not who they're after. If they want someone who is happy with being undervalued and disrespected, I won't ultimately work out for them either.

I've spent a lot of time in my life trying to impress the wrong people. Only now in my forties have I come to recognise my worth. All those public holidays spent studying. The many all-nighters spent planning the perfect sequence of lessons as an RFF teacher. The intricate feedback comments that were barely read by students and parents. The hours of preparation put into planning lessons or tutoring sessions.

This time and effort has amounted to something. The product is a teacher who thinks critically, who has something of great worth to share with her students. A person who has never been motivated by the pay cheque is a person who will ultimately shine as an educator. I have been very fortunate to receive fantastic feedback in recent years from parents whose children I tutor. For the first time, my teaching is being witnessed in their homes, its merits evaluated. It's like everything I have worked towards is finally seeing fruition. This was never going to happen in the school context, where my role as a diverse learning teacher is often looked down on by superiors. In schools, limits are set on what I am able to contribute, but outside of that context, the sky is the limit.

I've finally started to feel significant again.

28 October, 2020

Best Essential Oils - Australia

I've always liked burning incense, then I discovered oil burners that required tealight candles (can be messy and smelly!). Lately, I've enjoyed burning madison candles. The best brands have been the most unlikely ones. Organic Choice candles from Coles are surprisingly good, particularly the Indian Coconut and Lime fragrance. Ecoya also makes great quality candles, especially the French Pear fragrance. 

With Glasshouse, it depends on the fragrance. I find Tahaa a little strong and chemical-like; it gives me headaches as the living space needs to be larger than mine is. Circa Home's Coconut and Watermelon candle is to die for.

More recently, I purchased an ultrasonic diffuser. I had always wanted one but wasn't sure of which one to get. I settled on one from a big appliance store due to having to spend some store credit there. What an incredible little device! While this diffuser is reliable and easy to use (although not as silent as I anticipated), the quality of available oils differs wildly. Fragrance oils are considered to be hazardous because they are made synthetically in labs using petrochemicals. Only pure essential oils should be used, but the quality of these can differ too. 'In Essence' essential oils are some of the best I have tried so far. 'Perfect Potion' also makes top quality oils. For both brands, the price is a little higher for 5, 8, 9 or 10 mL, but the potency can be up to two times stronger than that of other common brands. 

But then I decided to purchase a whole bunch of oils online without smelling them first. They were so well-priced that I even bought a little box to store them in, thinking that hundreds of positive reviews about these oils couldn't be wrong. However, it would appear that this common brand, which I won't mention directly, epitomises the 'emperor's new clothes' phenomenon. It seems that people like to be sheep, or they have not tried other brands, or less-than-complimentary ratings are not published on the website. The reality is that the oils just aren't up to scratch compared to ones I have been diffusing from the aforementioned companies. Some fragrances even have a toxic smell about them. The difference in quality is obvious, something I didn't expect at all. Whilst a little cheaper per millilitre, more of the inferior product is required to create a scent that permeates the air. I do not know how I will use these oils up (as some are rather unpleasant), but I'll create some blends where possible. The lavender oil is OK, so I will be liberal with it in all of my blends, but will be on the hunt for a quality lavender oil once this bottle runs out.

Some people own upwards 50 of these little bottles, but perhaps they have never tried alternative brands. I do not know why the difference is so perceptible to me, but I won't be buying any more bottles from this company. I will gradually use them up by adding some drops to the washing machine and will always try to purchase top-quality oils in future. I have learnt the hard way that you definitely get what you pay for!

The 'In Essence' essential oil range is amazing

15 July, 2020

Simple life...


I lead a simple life by most people's standards, yet I'm busy every single day. I'm never idle and don't have much time for leisure activities at present. Yes, it's a bit of a treadmill sometimes, but I still try to make time for the important things in life. I do what I can for the students I teach and tutor. Compassion was once shown towards me at the public high school I attended in Sydney. These actions made a huge difference and I am forever grateful to those educators. Although my skill set is not always recognised within the school context, every so often some sort of acknowledgement by students or parents is received. This keeps me going for a little while longer. Small encouragements mean so much and they cost nothing to give.

Do not withhold good from those to whom it is due, when it is in your power to act. (Proverbs 3:27)


13 May, 2020

Encouraging feedback...

It's quite a rare occurrence, but every now and again a parent will take the time to send me a simple message of thanks for my tutoring work. It makes it seem worthwhile when I know I'm making a small difference in some students' lives. I have had students where the parents are very instructive towards me (as though I don't know anything after 20+ years of teaching). In those situations, I usually start to realise that it will be hard to make progress with their child. The tutor does need some agency. I am sometimes relieved when these clients discontinue tutoring, whatever reason might be (usually financial). You invest a lot into helping their daughter or son (hours and hours beyond what you're remunerated for), and their child never meets their unrealistic expectations. It's difficult to witness.

But here is a lovely message I received yesterday. This particular parent wanted me to bill her for three hours rather than the two worked due to my preparation time, etc. (such decency is rare indeed). Of course, I said that the payment for two hours will be perfectly fine.